100% or Something

I don't even know what my thoughts are right now. I'm just grumpy. Good time to blog, yes?

Why does it seem like every time I like a guy, they're super interested, long enough for me to get interested, then they stop. It goes from all flirty and fun to me being flirty and fun and the guy only joining in occasionally, but the rest of the time acting completely indifferent.

I don't get it. All that this does to me is frustrate me and makes me realize how truly wonderful Mitch is. And we went through a seriously crappy year of mostly not being allowed to talk. But when I go on dates or really have anything to do with guys, they do something, or don't do something, and I get frustrated and confused, and the main thing that comes to mind is how that wouldn't have happened with Mitchell. How Mitchell is my best friend, and totally gets me. I don't have to worry about ANYTHING involving my personality or anything to do with who I am, because I know that Mitch loves it all. The fact that I love and laugh at violence in movies, especially involving a ridiculous amount of blood. That I laugh at pretty much everything. The fact that I don't like sports at all.

I sometimes just feel like...I'm so willing to open up and be 100% for people, and it seems like apparently that isn't the normal thing to do. Most other people I meet don't seem to do that. I should stop. But I don't know how.

Any suggestions would be appreciated.

So yes. The moral of this story is that I miss the guy in Taiwan. A lot. And I love that he's on a mission but hate that he's away for so long, because I fail at other guys.